I almost ruined myself because of my freaking temper!

Morning: I freak out, I gone mad and I really could feel that my temper was boiling. I'm still sane during that time but I was so rude to anyone who came to me and I'm having a hard time controlling my mouth!!!

Reason: My youngest sister
I sponsored my sister here. She arrived two weeks ago and been helping her out to secure a good job. My brother is a big help also. I welcomed her as if nothing happened in the past. My boyfriend was so nice on her. My mom even gave a letter entrusting my sister on my care. Hmmmm…

The Past: We grew up having sibling rivalry. We clashed a lot when we were kids. She's my mom's favorite eventhough my mom would deny it and says she loves us all (6 children including freaking lei). Until such time that we decided not to study in the same school (college) inorder to avoid conflict. Things running smoothly, we rarely clashed coz of different activities, hobbies and until such time that I decided to live independently after college. I got a good job and an apartment of my own and I knew she was jealous especially when my mom did not allow her to live alone. Our relationship did not rekindle anymore.

The Dilemma: I promised my mom that I would help whatever it takes me. Now that she found a good job, our rivalry revived. Something happened towards our conversation and last thing I knew we were shouting at each other and brought up the dead issue from the grave. I almost throw my phone on her when she utters those words. I was so shocked when I heard it. I really lose my temper!

The Compromise: My brother stands as our referee. He knew how stubborn I am and how sensitive my sister. He enlightened us but I knew that I hurt her also but being an eldest, I want respect from her. In the end, I have to understand and give way on her.

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I really don’t know why it happened or why I let the past spoiled us. I nearly ruined my relationship, good thing that he understands my moods.